Monday, January 11, 2010

there is something really wrong with me

im not ready to be in a relationship because i dont want to keep going through the same things over and over again. i thought the whole purpose of us dating is for us to do whatever we want and not feel attached. yet, i still feel like i am attached, to you. i'm not a clingy girl and sometimes i just need some time for myself. why would you compare what you've done for me to what i've done for you? i know i don't do much and i do feel bad. i don't understand how you feel used. im so sick of this.

i don't want to be with someone clingy. i don't need that anymore. i don't understand why are you rushing to be in a relationship. it's not gonna be the end of the world. get a grip. let loose. have some fun. thats all i want for you. i know your intentions, and i may seem selfish but i want myself to be happy for now. i just want happiness. i just feel that no matter how much i explain myself to you, you will never understand.

this will be a never ending rant, so i should just stop before i say something really stupid.

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