It became a lie on you.

After everything that has, and has not happened, I still adore you. Boyfriends come and go, but you.. You're different. It's been a year and the feelings aren't gone. It hurts to see you with someone else just as much as it hurts you to see me happy with another guy. The question thats always running through my mind is why - why didn't you ask me back after everything we said to each other. I risked my relationship just to be with you, to talk to you. I know that in the process I will get hurt, but still I let myself get hurt. I dont want you to see me as weak or desperate but the truth is, I am desperate. I want you, so much it consumes me. I say things to hurt you only because I want to push you away and end everything because I'm tired. Tired of playing these games. Why wont you just tell me how you really feel, cause I'm ready to face the heartache and the truth. I dont want to be kept in the dark anymore.