I'm...

Still feeling a little emotional. The ride to Meru felt like the longest ride ever. Kim, Tommy, Preveen and I were so frustrated because on the way to the cemetery there was an accident and we wanted to see Sanjay for the last time. Stupid fuckers who weren't supposed to turn out kept turning out. We finally reached the cemetery just in time to see them bury him. It still hasn't sunken in that he's gone. It's like we have to keep reminding ourselves that he is gone. After the funeral when everyone left, all of us, Kaviin, Hashok, Manosh, Kim, Jeff, Amy, Jae Haan, Preveen, Tommy, J-Shawn, this guy (lol), Wand and I just hung out there talking about Sanjay and just chilling with him. Went back to Sanjay's house for lunch, hung out there till 6 then Wand sent me home. Things are gonna be different.